I’ve been taking a little break from posting blogs here, making time for posting great changes at Pat Moore Foundation. They’ve had some great additions, as well as new videos on their site! So, now I am back.
It’s been an interesting week, and even at 20 years and going in sobriety I run into situation that test my sanity, my ego, and yes even my sobriety.
It’s a never ending struggle sometimes, but at least now-a-days I am much more aware of when I enter a complex – a pattern of old behavior. This type of pattern, if not kept in check will surely lead me back to a drink. Clearly, that won’t make the situation better, but that doesn’t mean I don’t think about drinking from time to time.
My main struggle, I think, is other people drinking and not taking responsibility for their actions. Mainly they say, “Oh, I was drinking!” As if that’s an excuse that’ll make it all go away. The problem with that type of thinking, in my opinion, is that the person on the receive end of the bad behavior, namely me, is left holding the bag and having to deal or cope with the what was said or done. What has gotten me close to trouble was feeding into that line. I can easily find myself wondering, “Well, gosh, when I am a jerk I am just a jerk and I need to apologize for being a jerk.” I don’t look for reasons to explain. I work to make amends.
However, when I try to explain that, I often find the person feels I am coming across as superior. Well, maybe I am, but not necessarily in a way that should be insulting. I don’t think I am better…I just don’t have the excuse of drinking. On top of that, I think a lot of truth comes out when people are lubricated to the point where they are uninhibited. They may be sorry for the words they chose, but that doesn’t erase the hurt they caused.
Recovery Rob BIO
Recovery Rob is a 47-year-old man who has more than nineteen years of sobriety, whose drugs of choice at one time were alcohol and drugs, and he has worked in and around the field of addiction for more than 20 years. Having just recently launched his own website, www.askrecoveryrob.com, he hopes to reach out and continue to help others who work through their process of addiction and recovery. Recovery Rob is a professional writer who has published two novels and is currently working on his third. He has been writing and working as Pat Moore Foundation’s premiere blogger and content writer, which helps keeps Pat Moore Foundation’s addiction and recovery blog top-rated.