If you're having trouble staying sober and you feel you've tried everything to do achieve sobriety but you haven't gone to a treatment facility, you should consider getting help at our Orange County detox.
Many people have tried to quit on their own, and haven't been able achieve much long term sobriety. They find themselves in a repeating loop of relapse, and each time they relapse they beat themselves up more. The trick, I think, is to find a detox and rehab program, either on an outpatient or inpatient basis, that can teach you the foundations of how to stay sober. They can also teach you to identify the reason or reasons you relapse, and then how to avoid those pitfalls in the future.
Addiction is something that you will never overcome. You will never be cured. It is a condition you will always need to treat, and believe me when I tell you that if you work at this and stay present within yourself you'll find a life much different than the one you're experiencing with continual relapse!
There's nothing wrong with starting over.